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One Step Forward

2011-12-18T17:30:00.001+08:00

For all the awesome things that I'm known for (ceh! :P), being a domestic goddess is not one of it. I'm not a good cook or should i rephrase that to "I can't cook". Up until my first year in Uni, the only meal i could cook with confidence is fried rice. I've been harboring desires to learn and get busy in the kitchen but the workload plus laziness hampered all attempts on my part. =_='

However everything changed when SPM happened, and I was no longer a Kitchen Virgin. As the story goes, I stayed back in Pinggan-Pinggan for a couple of weeks to fulfill my duty as an SPM invigilator. With so much free time and the sudden appearance of recipe books everywhere (I've got Kak Asnah to thank for that. Those books are among our entertainment during the long hours of invigilating).

So this particular recipe called "Ayam Kelapa" caught my eye. Mainly because I recognize all of the ingredients and the steps are explained clearly. After 3 days of contemplation, I told myself "stop being a lazy ass and own that kitchen, woman!". On Sunday, Ani and I drove to Kota Marudu to buy the ingredients needed. Highlight of the day? I found out what Daun Kari looks like.

The cooking part was quite comical. Well, I was all alone without anyone to tell me if I'm doing things right. The outcome was quite unexpected. I would like to think that I pull it off! *happydance* The chicken didn't taste weird, it's a bit spicy (due to the Cili Padi & Lada Merah) and there's a hint sweetness to it. (Really Jess? -_-) Sorry, describing is not really one of my strong suit! Now, on to the pictures :-

PIC 1: This is hpw it's suppose to look like

PIC 2: JESS' VERSION (In Progress)

PIC 3: JESS' VERSION (In Progress)


PIC 4: JESS' VERSION (Completed)

I'm also glad to report that there was no case of diarrhea afterwards.
Hey, this is one thing I could get used to.
One step forward. My next challenge is that banana cake recipe.
Wish me luck readers! :)

Of That Dinner (where I didn't win anything)

2011-11-22T13:08:00.001+08:00

I'm such a procrastinator!
>_<
I was swamped with blogging ideas since my last post on November 7 but I put it off, and now i can't seem to remember a single thing about the so-called "ideas". Maybe it wasn't as interesting as I thought. Let's see...ermm...ermmm.. (thinking hard)

(lightbulb moment!)

Not so long ago, I blogged about my dress-hunting plan for my school annual dinner. I decided to break away from the usual white, black, brown choice of dresses and opted for teal or turqoise. It's a wraparound dress - one that compliments my - uh - curvy figure. Found it at a boutique in Wisma Merdeka at just RM 60. Here it is :-

But my most prized hunt goes to that pair of gorgeous nude pumps from Maylana Boutique. Good quality, comfortable and absolutely worth every dime.

***

So it was a great dinner. It was held at Perkasa, Kundasang on a Saturday night - good food, good entertainment and it was great catching up with former colleagues who were invited as well. Here's one of me and a few of my good friends.

Unfortunately, i didn't win anything that night. Not even one of the lucky draw prizes -_-"

The next day, we finally set foot at Sabah's very own New Zealand aka Desa Cattle, in awe of the green EVERYWHERE, the cows and the flowers.

However my favorite shot is this one:

The breathtaking view of the summit of Mount Kinabalu at 6.23 am taken from the balcony of our room at Nabalu Lodge, using a 50mm Canon lens. Gorgeous isn't it?

Ok, that's about it.
Hopefully i win something next time =___='

On the brink

2011-11-07T09:20:00.000+08:00

The long hols will start in two weeks. The year will end in about two months. At this time last year, I was still basking in the glory of graduation. I was winning with the world spinning at my will. On this day however, or night if to be more specific, I'm not so sure anymore. I stand to lose a few things that matter. Things that make up the soul of Jess Big Plan. Unless I do something about it. The hardest part there is. I made myself believe I wasn't a quitter. I told everyone the same thing. Right now, I am ashamed to admit that I just might.

Without trying harder.

Without praying harder.

Such conclusion would freak me out a year ago.

But now, there's that unmistakable scent of surrender and acceptance. Hovering. Mocking.

I know I have it in me.

Courage.

Find it.

Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.

It's A Small Joy: Butter Cookies

2011-10-03T21:06:00.001+08:00

It could be a smell, a flash of color, a smile, a coloring book or a phrase that immediately brings you back to a memory. Of little moments in the past, that hovers just beneath your consciousness. These deja vus are often heartwarming ones, or what some would say 'a small joy'. Well, I had THAT moment while grocery shopping at the supermarket this afternoon. I was looking for Oat Crackers when something familiar caught my eye....wait..wait for it..

TADAAAAAAA

It's the Danisa Traditional Butter Cookies! I haven't had a taste since.....can't recall when was the last time but it was surely a LOOOONG time ago. I used to think the Danisa Butter Cookies as a "once in a blue moon" cookies because mum seldom bought it, but when she did, the box would be empty at the end of the day.

This particular sight never fails to take my breath away. Yummy yumm yumm!

So these are the types of the cookies in the box. Believe it or not, I just found out what they are today. -_-

This one's my favorite. Always have, always will. The Vanilla Ring cookie.

I love bumping into remnants of my childhood. This particular one reminds me of simpler times, when all I need to do to feel happy is have a Vanilla Ring Cookie, a hot Milo and my dog Tudy (now deceased). God and His little reminders! :")

It's A Girl Thing

2011-09-22T10:32:00.000+08:00

Sofia Vergara's coral gown at the Emmys is a beauty. It hugs her figure perfectly and most importantly, it doesn't blend with the carpet. If only I have toned arms like hers, I would love to wear something like this to my school dinner. Which reminds me, I have one month to find the perfect dress.

Like any other girls, I love dress-hunting but the stress that comes with it? urghh! The shoes comes next, and then what to do with the hair? what kind of make-up? Accessories? Can you feel me dawg?

I still don't have a specific theme in my head. I usually determine one before going shopping. I miss shopping with the girls, now I have to do it all alone :-/

Oh well, wish me luck readers!

p/s TV shows such as Glee, Modern Family, The Vampire Diaries, House etc have returned. Here's to experiencing download frenzy everyone! ^.^

Jesscylopedia: Entry 1

2011-09-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

I love how you could come across totally random information on the net with intended/accidental clicks on blog links, Facebook posts, tweets, etc. For instance, I was reading my Twitter timeline when this caught my attention:

@staronline Body odour? Gene disorder may be the culprit
You might not know that: there's an uncommon genetic disorder called the "fish-odour syndrome" that probably causes some people to have "troublesome, unexplained body odour". Also, the scientific name for bad breath is chronic halitosis. Rather than risk hurting your friend by telling her that she has bad breath, you might want to lessen the blow and say "I think you have chronic halitosis. Might as well see the dentist".

Next, I wouldn't know that our very own Miss Universe Malaysia 2011, Deborah Henry created giant waves in the recent Miss Universe pageant if it wasn't for those links on Facebook. Congrats Deborah! It's been awhile since our queens made it big in international pageants.

On a different note, I would like to highlight Miss Phillipines answer during the Top 5 Q&A. I like how she phrased her words to represent her belief and principle without being controversial. We all know how people sensitivities are easily pricked when it comes to religion issues.
This is a snippet of her answer to the question - "Would you change your religious beliefs to marry the person you love? Why and why not?"
"..And I have my faith, my principles, and this is what makes me who I am. And if that person loves me, he should love my God too."

Moving on, BOO! SQUEALLLLL!

Boo was another discovery while browsing Time.com. Yes, that's a real dog of Pomeranian breed who is a public figure on Facebook with 1,761,496 likes as of Sept 18. 9.11pm. Boo has a book titled "Boo: The Life Of The World's Cutest Dog" (currently in stores), has made appearances on TV in the US and list "wearing shirts" as his favorite pastime. +__+

If you're a dog lover, check out Boo's facebook page and ogle the pictures. Urghh @_@ cuteness overload.

Welllllll.....I would love to ramble yada yada yada yada etc etc bla bla bla some more, but that will have to wait until Entry 2..or whenever I'm in the mood to write. Take care awesome people!

A Dash Of Pink For The Grumps

2011-08-22T09:59:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

Here’s a list of questions by my students that never fail to make my day.

1. “Teacher, mau tulis nama ka?” (On a scale 1-10, this always makes me mad. A nameless worksheet is pretty much USELESS!)

2. ‘Teacher, mau tulis ka tu?” (usually asked right after you JUST instructed them to write in the exercise book. Grrrrrrr)

3. ‘Teacher, buku apa mau guna?” (On the right side of the white board, the word “WRITING BOOK” is clearly written in capital letters.)

4. “Teacher, hantar?” (When you’ve repeatedly told them to pass up their exercise book when the lesson ends)

5. “Teacher, berapa haribulan hari ni?” (After a month of having to tell them that today is ___ of ______ 2011, I make it point to ask them before the lesson begins. There are still a few idiots who ask)

6. “Teacher, boleh kita masuk library/Bilik Akses/Makmal Komputer/?” (One after another will ask the very same question though I have just answered the person before in a LOUD and CLEAR voice.

7. “Teacher, pulang sudah ka?” (Students in my 12.50pm class are a restless bunch. Because I’m mean, I never let them off earlier than the official 1.30pm bell)

But sometimes, despite being bombarded by the same idiotic questions everyday, there are those rare days in between when they simply reminded me of the joy of being a teacher.

“Teacher, saya siap!” said Kristus, who is not that bright but hardworking when pushed to the right direction.

“Teacher, apa maksud ‘paddock’?” asked Fairul, who never finds English interesting (would rather stare into space) but after that one lesson of ‘Flipping Fantastic’, he makes it a point to understand every single word in the short story :’)

And one fine day, before I left my Form 1 class, a student came up to me..

“Teacher, for you”

A single flower.

Ah, the small joy. Thank you God, for the reminder ;)

All Hell Breaks Loose

2011-07-24T19:17:00.000+08:00

22nd of July marked the first year anniversary of Jess, the working woman. In the span of three months that I went M.I.A, a mixture of things happened. I know I'm a changed person. I have entered the profession because of passion, because I wanted to be an educator. However, there were a number of times that I wished I was someplace else doing something different. The workload, time, money and amount of energy spent at school and on the students are overwhelming sometimes. Even passion comes second when the spirit is battered.

The good part? - the pay is just enough for a good living. Now that I've got Jack ;-

my financial management has changed drastically. And shopping falls to the 'least important' section. From here now on, the main question when out shopping is "Shoes OR Jeans OR Dress Or Make Up?". Sucks right? but yeah, that's what adulthood is all about - balancing debts, wants and needs while enjoying life and the drama that comes with it.

Huarghhh , even I feel bored typing this particular post. Complaints and all that noise is not going to improve things, but at least I know I have something going on in life that's worth getting up to every mpr. Well, two cents to those who are just starting in the working world, make sure your financial management is on the right track. You don't wanna work just to settle the debts, that's a sad sad life ya'll.

So I'm ending this post with R.I.P dedication to the late Amy Winehouse. Thank you for the music Amy, hope it's better for you up there.

Oh....

And also a promise to blog as often as possible. Pinky Promise.

Bye now! xoxoxo

The Frost Complex

2011-03-27T10:40:00.000+08:00

"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, I'm sorry I could not travel both"

One of my best friends once said to me "Everything that has happened is an excuse for something else to happen". Do you believe that even the mere act of NOT taking out the trash at the usual time could cause a chain of reactions that leads to something bigger? One slip of the tongue, just one look at someone, maybe an accidental brush of the arm, or coincidently reaching for the same ketchup bottle on the rack. One thing lead to another and the next thing you know, you're at a tricky junction.

Where do I go from here?
Can I go back?
Is it too late?
Why?

There are people before us who have been there. They have grappled with the same fear, anxiety, unsureness Is this the right path?
Should I brave the unknown?
Some of them made it. Some of them didn't.
But the question is -
"Are you going to make it?"

I wish there is a Replay button at every tricky junction.
Or maybe a magic mirror that tells you which road to take.
No.
Perhaps what you are really asking for is not for God to turn back time or any of those Doraemon tricks.
You just want an Off button.
So that whichever road you choose to tread on,
it will be devoid of pain
OFF

Metamorphosis

2011-03-14T13:38:00.004+08:00

Hello?..hellooooooooooo *echoes*

Wow look at the date! It's been awhile aye? Miss me? :)

I've been away for so long that I feel the need to update you, dear readers, on the recent happenings in my life. o Assuming that you do care, cuz yeah, I've been out of the radar for like MONTHS which translates to DECADES in blogspeak:)

Here We Go In One Breath:

IhavegraduatedIhavefulfilledmylifelongdreamtobeaneducatormetnewamazingpeopleismaybeinloveand still as crazy as ever. I used to look up to my aunts (they were in their early twenties then) and thought, damn! they are so mature, so sure of themselves, so serious about work and yada yada yada.

PHEWW!

And guess what? I'm turning 24 on the the 24th of March and I don't feel any different. Except that I have a clearer view of what I want in life. I still sucks in the budgeting department and I can't cook to save my life. Oh wait, there is another plus! I was looking through some old pictures this morning and it dawned on me that I finally got the thick hair that I've always wanted since I was 13 at the age of 23. My hair was so 'nipis' back then that it inspired my mum so much she named me "Besar Kepala" -_-'

I lived the first three months of 2011 purely on a leap of faith. There is drama once in a while. Sometimes it hurts and sometimes it mends. I think it's God's personal apology for making me go through such a lame teen hood so He creates so much drama for me this time around :P Joke Joke..hehe

Bah, enough for ice-breaking post, Should have done this in January. Punyalah ketinggalan ~sigh~

Have a good March people!

P/s Pray For Japan. Pray for those who have lost their loved ones :(

Love always, Mrs Bert :)

I Remember

2010-11-06T12:43:00.003+08:00

“It's surprising how much of memory is built around things unnoticed at the time”

I have a little space in my heart.

In it contains a lot of you.

As I walked on without turning back,

This tiny piece of memory will always be yours.

I will carry it with me..
forever :)

Sunset :)

Trampled On

2010-10-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

Cultural Sensitivity.
Yeah right.
Some people, like you, you and you flaunt the words around to serve your prejudices.
As if I was born yesterday.
Aif I wasn't born HERE - Sabah. Negeri Di Bawah Bayu.
So don't even dare to imply that I haven't considered all (if any) possibility of offending any types cultural sensitivity. Unless they are yours, kan?

I don't understand why some people get worked up over a dance <gulp> <gasp>. Modern dance, for instance does not, in any way, encourages osculation, fornication or wankinism or wayward thoughts. People dance for fun - activities that are enjoyable or amusing.
Not everything screams the birds and the bees okay.
Loosen up a little, will you?

Professionalism.
Have the decency to inform me in advance before pulling the plug next time yeah?
Not after I've worked so hard (all that time and money) only for it be canceled in the eleventh hour.
Just because I'm a youngsinglenewt-----r doesn't mean I have no life nor does my forehead bears the initial L.

The hurt and embarrassment was too much.
But yeah,
Shit happens.
So tell me,
How do you initiate change,
when even baby steps get trampled on?

Hope

2010-10-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

Hope is the Thing with Feathers - Emily Dickinson

"Hope" is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land
And on the strangest sea,
Yet never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

For a split second, I dared to hope.

A brief, happy summary of what could be

But in the end, reality prevails.

You will always be the one who got away.

As I will be too.

The Way I Am

2010-09-04T11:31:00.000+08:00

I have always stand alone.

Chasing dreams, painting stars.

I have always stand alone.

Cutting through the darkness,sewing on patches.

I have always stand alone.

And I like it.

Comfortable.

Safe.

Do you get it now?

Acceptance

2010-08-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

A leaf fluttered in through the window this morning, as if supported by the rays of the sun, a bird settled on the fire escape, joy in the task of coffee, joy accompanied me as I walked.

After a month here in Pitas, I could look you in the eye and say, "I'm fine here" with so much honesty that it could make you cry at how much this whiny person has changed. After much soul-searching (for the lack of better term), I am so thankful to God for this opportunity to live my dream. Though it might not be a bed of roses with very few good days in between, I believe in good karma.

I have 25 teaching hours per week. Five classes (Form 1, Form 2 and Form 4). I've expressed my interest in teaching Form 4 and I got it, but Form 1 and 2?

Dread!

Fortunately, I was proven wrong. Dead wrong

After a week teaching them, I realized that teaching the lower secondary students has its own charm. Kids have little inhibitions, eager for attention and they generally rock your life by making your lesson plans come true. Ask them to act, sing, dance, and mime, etc they will do it...just as long they like you.

My Form 4 kids have so much potential, but with years of very minimum exposure to English, they need to work harder than most people.Can you imagine not knowing what a blog is in this digital age?

It's devastating!

Gandhi once said, be the change you want to see in the world.

Baby steps, Jess.

Wow, I'm actually talking about serious stuff!

Teacher-talk suits me just fine, yeah?

All is fine and acceptable for now.

My first salary which is around 3kplus is still untouched. (WIN!)

Not much but it's 100% mine :) All mine!

Twirl now,

Because we have a lot to spin and skip about.

How You Remind Me

2010-08-09T10:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, (especially in the past two weeks) I forgot WHY I'm here. ~~Too busy being a whiny baby.~~

Sometimes, I need to remind myself WHY I'm here.

And guess what?

The reminder came to me.

It's like, the big guy up there is trying to tell me:

"Stop moping"

and

Remember how and why you came to be here.

p/s yang ini kira lucu juga la. Ada dua budak Form 3 came to see me during recess.

"Cigu, ni present untuk cigu".

"Aikk, cigu pernah masuk kelas kamu ka?"

"Tida pernah"

"Jadi kenapa kamu bagi cigu hadiah?"

"Sebab kami mau rapat-rapat sama cigu"

*speechless*

Darlin' it ain't that easy

2010-08-04T07:54:00.000+08:00

Readers,

I am officially a teacher now.

A working woman.

A freakin’ adult!

Yeah, I don’t feel like celebrating…yet.

I’ve been posted to a secondary school in the rural district of Pitas. The first thing that came to mind was FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML

The recurring theme of my first week here was MOPING. Even though the school turns out to be nice, the PK1 extremely helpful, the Kerani is super efficient, the teachers are friendly BUT somehow, I don’t feel settled. I don’t know what to expect other than the worst. I miss my family, my friends, and my dog. Well, starting over is a pain in the ass. You know what I mean.

My second week started on a good note. I finally got my table in the Teachers Room. The teachers I’m staying with are awesome housemates; they didn’t mind that I couldn’t cook. I hang out with two other new teachers at school – Tim and Diah. I think we are going to be good friends for a long time :) Have I mentioned that clean water is like GOLD here? Even the school buys water for daily use. At one point, I’m gonna have to start buying water WHEN the huge well that they pumped water from runs out of uh, water (wow, that’s a lot of ‘water’ in one sentence) No, I haven’t seen the well and yes, we use water pumps here.

However, the one thing I can’t stand is the unstable internet connection. There is no 3G coverage in this area; even Broadband of any kind is snail-slow. The school wireless connection is my only hope of going online but even that only works well for a few hours before the usual “Server Not Found" crap. Oh, the fact that electricity goes out every few hours for at least ten minutes EVERY DAY is not helping.

So, I’m getting Streamyx in two weeks. With internet, anything else is bearable.

The irony of the situation is that I have waited and expected this (to be sent to an interior school) but apparently experiencing it is a whole different matter. Adjusting takes time right? Besides, I’m here for a reason. It is time to put the six years of higher education to use and produce my first batch of students.

That thought alone is enough to get me through every day. (memotivasikan diri..hehe)

So bring on the little monsters already.

p/s I’m pretty sure Taylor (my dog) is missing me right now.

The Holiest Thing Alive

2010-07-15T14:32:00.007+08:00

Sometimes, it's embarrassing how much my Ma is still the same overprotective nag like she was when I was 12.

Ten years ago: "Makan sayur banyak-banyak supaya kurang sikit jerawat ko"

Now: "Itulah ko tidak makan sayur. Tingu kulit ko banyak scar."

Ten years ago: "Ko sudah minum susu ka?" She forced Nespray on me

Now: "Ko sudah minum susu ka?" She forced Alpha Lipid on me.

Ten years ago: "Jangan lupa botol air ko atas meja"

So I'm forgetful.

Now: "Mama suda kasi sedia botol air ko. Jangan lupa lagi macam kemarin"

I was in my final year in college and I still forget my "botol air". Old habits die hard.

Ten years ago: It's always fried rice and hot milo for breakfast. It always took her ten minutes to wake me up for school.

Now: Toast bread and hot nescafe for breakfast. She knocks on my door "E-C, pukul 5.30 sudah ni, bangun!"

She never let me, nor my little sister out of sight when we were little. I had to sulk for two days before she finally relented and let me go to my first camping trip. I don't have to ask for permission now but she still calls when I'm out - "mau hujan lebat ni" which is mum-speak for "be home early".

There was one time when I went to a friend's house to watch Titanic. It was 1998, I was 12 and Leonardo Di Caprio was a revelation. I didn't tell her because the friend's house is 2km away. She wouldn't allow me to walk on my own, you know, because bad guys are everywhere. That's what she told me every day. I decided that Titanic would be worth braving the threat of bad guys and..uh head hunters. She flipped out when she got home from school and I wasn't there.

Later that night.....

Relax ma, I said, I only went to a friend's house.

Ya, but I didn't know where you were and I was worried sick.Don't ever do that again..yada yada yada...

Last year, I went on a trip to Penang. By bus. From Shah Alam. It was a wonderful trip. On the journey back to Shah Alam from Penang, it was near midnight and we are still on the road. She called every hour, asking where I was, how much longer until we reach Shah Alam. I got annoyed. Ma, no need to freak out. The bus driver is driving slowly. It was near 3am when I got home at Shah Alam, Now I can sleep, she said.

My dad called later in the afternoon, telling me that mum didn't sleep well last night worrying about me.

Just, be careful ok, don't worry us so much, he said.

Will do, pa.

I am 23 now. Mum still cooks me breakfast. Forces me to eat veg. Calls me when I'm out, reminding me to be safe. Get on my case if I skip breakfast or shop too much. Nag me to sort out the ever expanding stuff in my room, tell me to keep my long hair or tone down the junk food.

Between 1998 and 2010, a lot of things happened. The highlight? - I grew up. But for some strange reason, Mum never got that memo. To her, I'll always be that little girl that cuddles up to her at night.

So I get it you know, I'll always be her little girl. Age is just a number anyway.

And I wouldn't it have it any other way.

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY MUM!

I love you :)

All Things TV

2010-07-02T00:14:00.001+08:00

Here's a quick recap of what you can expect from some of my your favorite TV series when they return a few months from now.

1. Gossip Girl : The case of love interest.

i. As we all know, Chuck Bass was shot in the season three finale. Fret not, he's alive and a "changed" man after his close encounter with death. He will have a new girlfriend, name unknown, and they will bump into Blair and Serena in Paris. Clemence Poesy (pic below), who was in one of the Harry Potter movies, will play Chuck's new girlfriend.

ii. Lover boy Nate who has slept with every girl on the Upper East Side will also have a new love interest. Katie Cassidy (pic below. wow, she's so Serena!) of Melrose Place fame, had been casted to play this role. I wonder where the writers are going with this. Nate haven't had his own storyline since Season Two. Well, a storyline that doesn't involve falling in love with a new girl and getting effed up by the girl in the end. Boring! and Chace can't really act. Sorry.

Season Four of Gossip Girl will return on September 13th.

2. Glee : The dentist and Charice

i. Emma told Will that she's dating her dentist in the season 1 finale. Lo and behold, John Stamos will be playing the dentist! I bet the character is a douche. Looking at his picture did nothing to lessen that suspicion..

ii. The super talented Charice Pempengco has joined the Glee cast for season 2 as a recurring character. Playing an international transfer student, Charice, whose character's name is yet to be released, will be Rachel's new rival, maybe something like the Rachel-April rivalry in the first half of season 1? Since Charice is just as good as Rachel, vocal-wise, how about personality-wise? We'll just have to wait and see.

iii. Another yeay? There will be a Brittany-centric episode in the new season. This is by far, the best.move.ever by the writers!

My favorite Brittany line: "Did you know that dolphins are just gay sharks?"

Season 2 of Glee will return in September. Premiere date has not been specified yet.

3. House - Huddy and a new doctor

House and Cuddy will 'engage in a meaningful relationship". I've been waiting for Huddy to happen since three seasons ago. The writer sure made us wait! Furthermore, expect Dr. Cameron to make few appearance, Thirteen won'be around and a new female doctor will join the team. Awesome~

Here's the Season 7 premiere picture released by CW. Huddy on vacation!

Season 7 of House will return in September. Premiere date has not been specified yet.

4. Supernatural - Reunited

The gist of the new season as released by the CW:

Season six will be a season of mystery and shadow... monsters, angels and demons roam across a lawless and chaotic landscape. And so Dean Winchester, who has retired from hunting and sworn never to return, finds himself being pulled back into his old life — pulled back by none other than Sam Winchester, who has escaped from Hell.

The two reunite to beat back the rising tide of creatures and demon-spawn, but they quickly realize that neither are who they used to be, their relationship isn’t what it used to be, and that nothing is what it seems.

In case you missed it, Castiel and Bobby will return as..Castiel and Bobby. Apparently both are alive! Excited yet? Emmm, i'm more on the curious side.

My favorite picture of Sam and Dean from Season 1. No, they are not boyfriends on the show, they are brothers! ~roll eyes~

The sexy Winchesters will return for Season Six on September 24th.

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These updates are legit and confirmed as of 1st of July 2010 as released on TV FANATIC and several other official sites of the aforementioned shows :)

The Naked Truth: 2 - Cooking Woes

2010-06-30T12:14:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary,

I am domestically challenged. I mean , I'm great at keeping the house clean and the garden pretty but do you want to know which part of the house that I dreaded the most? - no, it's not the attic. It's the kitchen! Before hitting puberty, I have no doubt that KITCHEN is synonymous to EATING. You go in there for breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper, heck yes, life is good.

That was until I was told that girls should know how to cook. Just like how they should wear skirts, have long hair and smell nice. I never take cooking seriously during my high school years, mostly because my mum cooked all the time, just enough for a family of four. I did, however, acquired the skill to cook fried rice without using onions. Because I hate onions..then.

I'm partial to it now.

So, my lack of cooking skills or talent never bothered me. I'm not a choosy person, I eat whatever is on the table. Except veggies of course with exceptions to few types of vegetable. Certainly no leafy greens because I have sensitive gag-reflex. I do make a mean spaghetti once in a while. I've improved a lot since my first attempt two years ago. Other than that, I really don't know how to cook.

When I was sharing a house with five other girls in Shah Alam, all of them are cooking monsters! I realized just how behind I am in the cooking department. I didn't know how to prepare 'Ayam Masak Merah" or the "Sayur Kailan dish" or any type of soup for that matter! I usually play Assistant Chef, because I'm THAT bad.

Bad, like how bad. you ask? I have no idea how long to wait until you throw in the veg or chicken or whatever in the pan. How much salt? Chicken cubes? How are they suppose to look like when they are thoroughly cooked? (for fried chicken/fish). So I know what celery is, but what is it for? Now that I do know what the celery is for, another question follows like, how do I prepare it? or what type of dish that should have celery in it?

This girl is a TOTAL FAILURE! I bet that's what you're thinking now. Yes, this is for real, you better believe it. Ask Dedz if you want further clarification. Cooking is my ultimate Kryptonite. I'm graduating with ANC in November but I can't cook if my life depends on it. That's a serious crime to womanity! ~gasp!~

This is my fault obviously. I haven't been paying attention to Mum all this while and I haven't really initiated anything. I can't learn how to cook IF I don't want to cook in the first place. It's really time to get greasy in the kitchen. Take-outs and eating out is fine when you are single, but once married, you don't want to feed your guy with McD all the time, especially when the said guy have a cooking maestro for a mother. Not that I'm getting married or cooking for anyone other than the family anytime soon..heh!

Don't worry future husband, I am learning now. Slowly. I'm not as ignorant as I was two years ago. In fact, I'm getting better. I made my first chicken soup yesterday. My sister said "ok bah". I trusted her judgement because she is a fickle bitch when it comes to food. A better cook than me too! Now, there are mum and dad to impress. Urghhh, daunting!

So, I'm actively googling simple recipes online. Mum is busy with school so she can't really give me a one-on-one tutoring. It's okay, Youtube takes care of that. See if I transformed into Rachael Ray 2.0 in a year's time.

~~Or maybe I should just marry a chef.~~

Fangirling

2010-06-25T18:23:00.005+08:00

WARNING: THIS IS AN ECLIPSE-CENTRIC POST.

First of all, there are a few things that you should understand

I've never been ashamed to admit that I'm a TWILIGHTER. Yes, I'm a fan but don't expect me to buy a twilight mug, key chain or stickers because my obsession has its limit.

Yes, I have read the books. Yes, I've seen Twilight The Movie and New Moon The Movie, only liking the former because the latter bored me to tears. Or maybe it's because the novel itself is mostly about Jacob, and I don't give a rat's ass about Jacob.

No matter how pretty Taylor Lautner is.

Speaking of Taylor Lautner and Jacob, I'm a certified Team Edward. I've never defected, not even when they made Edward look like a starving boho in New Moon The Movie and have a half-naked Jacob prancing around in every damn scene.

But I would like to remind you though, being a Team Edward doesn't mean I'm team Rob Pattinson. I love Rob when and because he plays Edward Cullen. Of course Rob-when-he's-not-Edward is not that bad at all, mainly because he's dating Kristen Stewart aka Bella....

who just happens to be my favorite Red Carpet Muse. I've been following her red carpet style since Twilight and her choice of LBDs, gowns and shoes is always on the mark. I won't discuss her acting style or talent but she plays Bella perfectly, which is why I don't get why people mocked her Bella as being "too awkward" when Bella Swan is suppose to be AWKWARD. I know right, duh?!

Anyway, I managed to catch the Eclipse Premiere in L.A early this morning via the live streaming on E!Online. I wanted to see what Kristen would wear. Well, it wasn't exactly love at first sight. My first thought was

huh?

The back view is stunning:

but the front view? The one-sided long-sleeve leaves me cold and speechless.

but Kristen still looks AMAZING! if you can ignore the long-sleeve though -__-'

Click here to gawk at some of her best Red Carpet looks:

KSTEWLOVE

Oh, if you happen to be a Robsten shipper, here's a little something for you.

The Robsten Bubble Of Love

Please don't flame me for the above comment about not being Team Rob Pattinson. He's a pretty attractive guy.

What, you want more? Okay, here's another one.

The infamous grip of love

just one more to conclude the post:

So listen up Malaysians, Sabahans and Kota Kinabalu-ians

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse premieres on the 8th of July 2010.

If you hate Twilight and think it's ridiculouslamegayboring or whatever.,

you have got to be at least curious

you wouldn't be reading this.

hah!

xoxo

Green Glam And Gorgeous

2010-06-24T12:45:00.007+08:00

What do I think of Beauty Pageants? =

Pretty girls parading pretty dresses. Wow, look at her crown! ~gasp~! She won? ~gasp!~ Oh my, I love her hair!

Obviously the first thing that we look for when assessing Beauty Pageant contestants is the marks of a beauty like blinding smile? check! eyes like the sun? check! Tall? check!

If all above checks out, the second round of assessment ensues. A bit difficult this one, maybe that's why most people never bothered to look further than the first round because really, how do you judge or measure intangible qualities such as personality, confidence level and brains?

Obviously when on stage, everyone brings their A-game, so the only way to know for sure is to mingle with the potential Queens in a casual setting and prepared to be awed or vice-versa.

So, the opportunity of a lifetime presented itself in the form of an exclusive invite to the Miss Earth Sabah Dinner, thanks to Mr. Dinoza Mahruf and my BFF, Dedz who thought that it would be awesome to have some life outside of the Induction Course that nearly killed us all. We managed to convince Elvie aka The Twin to join and that's how the three of us ended up sitting at a table at The Roof Restaurant on the 15th June 2010, feeling all giggly and stupidly awkward! haha

We found out later that instead of just taking photos with the Miss Earth Sabah finalists, we were also given the privilege to interview them. Now that's a surprise bonus!

Though i only managed to talk to four finalists (May, Fiona, Lydia and Melody) it's enough to conclude several FAQ about BP that have been hovering in my head all this while.

The first one that i talked to was May Salitah, a sweet soul who is bent on promoting tree-planting culture to the masses, especially to young children. Anyone who have met and talked to her will agree with me on this - that she's a friendly, confident and articulate lady who seems to be genuinely passionate with her cause.

So, it's not really a surprise when she was crowned as the 2010 Miss Earth Sabah on the 20th June:)

Picture credit to Miss Earth Sabah Official Page

The second finalist, Fiona is also as passionate as May when it comes to promoting environmental causes in which her main concern is to work on eradicating the rubbish-throwing culture of the city people. I mentally applauded this because let's face it, though a city, Kota Kinabalu has yet to embrace the "Bersih Tanpa Sampah" mentality. Meanwhile, Lydia, a licensed diver and a graduate in the field of Environmental Science expressed her interest in preserving the cleanliness of the coastal area.

Think of Tanjung Aru and you get the idea.

I was also really impressed with Melody who feels that change should begin from the individual. Walk the talk and the rest will naturally follow. It's akin to the butterfly effect, very inspiring! :)

I came to the conclusion that Sabahans can be rest assured that our Miss Earth Sabah winners truly, wholly embrace the concept of "Beauty With Brains" or in the context of Miss Earth pageant

"Natural beauty - Unblemished, immaculate and refreshingly natural".

Congratulations to the winners!

Picture credit to Miss Earth Sabah Official Page

Make us proud at the Miss Earth Malaysia Finals!

My post has gotten ridiculously long but it wouldn't be appropriate to end it without mentioning our meeting with Miss Earth Malaysia 2009, Mandy Nandu, an amazing, down-to-earth lady and again to Mr. Dinoza Mahruf, whose effort of promoting this event by reaching out to the Sabahan Bloggers deserves another round of applause from us who were lucky enough to be there ^_^. Honto ni arigato!

Picture credit to Miss Earth Sabah Official Page

As for you, yes you! and of course, me too!

Play your part.

Heed the call

Protect our Mother Earth.

Till the next post,

xoxo :)

Spoil You

2010-06-13T13:44:00.010+08:00

Being a proud Gleek, I'm really satisfied with the season finale. Of course New Directions didn't win Regionals, Vocal Adrenaline was far more superior with their mash-up performance. What I didn't expect was them (New Directions) not getting a place at all, and their crestfallen expressions was really painful to watch. ~sob~

Other things did fall into the right places. Quinn and Puck's baby girl end up in the arms of Shelby, who is going to be an amazing mum, if her i-want-a-daughter speech is anything to go by. Finn and Rachel - finally getting together. Will and Emma - possibly getting together next season but not without complications. Emma's dentist, the one she's seeing after breaking up with Will, will make an appearance in Season 2. We've got a love triangle people!

As for Kurt and Mercedes, they will be getting new love interests next season. Now that will be fun to watch! My ultimate wish is for Mike aka The Other Asian to have more speaking lines. Be involved more in the main storyline. Hook him up with Brittany, whatever, just don't waste his potential! Other than that, I love how the writers humanizes Sue, despite her crazy bitch antics. She's capable of compassion and empathy to a certain degree (yeay!)
I love how she stood up to Olivia's scathing comments on the New Directions kids. Olivia branded them as talentless with 'illusions of grandeur' ouch!)
"But they are just kids"
Sue is right. They are just kids doing something that they love with gusto. You don't shoot them down by criticizing them with venom, constructive feedback is always the way to go.

As for the best performance by New Directions this season? I'll have to go with the Regionals performance. That's a perfect 10 for vocals and heart.

Oh tizzles, I'm going to miss Glee! Do come soon Season 2 :)

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As for real life, I got an A for my AE aka thesis. To be honest, I think I would die if I get less than an A. Read this, it's a tribute to my depression in the course of completing AE..haha. The thing is, I have put everything that I've got into it (kunun-kunun la) that it would be a crime to not expect a good grade :)

When I saw this on my final examination result slip:

ANC (VICE CHANCELLOR AWARD)

I know I made it :)

p/s Please excuse the hints of self-congratulatory. I'm so happy beyond words now. Please take note that this is not a daily occurrence, both in this blog and real life :)

Gasp!

2010-06-02T14:32:00.003+08:00

This is a story of about a girl and a series of unfortunate events involving a piece of clothing called the g-string or least known as thong, often confused with sandals by some people.

The first incident took place at her college dorm. Or more precisely, the toilet. The girl recently came into the possession of a cute GS with diamond straps. Fake diamonds AS the straps and not ON the straps. So what happen was, after shopping at the mall the entire day and stubbornly ignoring toilet calling due to her determination to crash every outlet with a SALE sign, her bladder finally rebelled just as she got out of her car at the hostel parking lot. So she ran for her life, I mean, the toilet. She gets there in time, pulled down her jeans in haste and then SNAP! SNAP! SNAP! she watched in horror as the diamond straps..well..you know..snapped. It's a good thing that she was wearing jeans.

The second one is quite crazy. You know when you gather your laundry and one or two or more piece of clothing might slip through your hands. Yeah, that happens when you don't use the laundry basket. Her little cousins were playing nearby with the family dog..who happens to love chewing things. Among the piece of clothing that miraculously slipped through her jelly fingers was a GS, her sister's shorts and her cousin's pink pajama. The family dog wasted no time appreciating his new playthings. The girl and her little cousins wrestledjumpedroared to save each piece and when they finally did, the girl's youngest cousin, a 7 year-old boy holds up the GS and said, "alaaaa, ini santut tinggal tali-tali lagi"....

when the said 'santut' is perfectly intact.

*facepalms*

There are other incidents. Minor ones though. Which she refused to share.

he he

Life's like that :)

Bebeh

2010-05-26T17:51:00.003+08:00

squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

@_@ cuteness overload :)

Justin Bieber. I get why people like him. In the 90's, the 15-year-old me would have gone crazy over him. I grew up in the boy band era, so that saaaaays a lot about my acceptance of the growing force that is Bieber. The song "Baby" is not so bad, it's the perfect song to listen to when you are bathing your dog (or is it just me?). The other song "One Time" used to be my breakfast song. You know, the one you sing along to while having your caffeine fix?. Indah got me addicted to the other song, the duet with Sean Kingston. Yesterday, that song was on repeat the entire time while doing laundry. Damn, that scared me for a second.

I DO NOT LIKE JUSTIN BIEBER. I HAVE NOT BEEN BIEBERIZED.

Oh did I just spelled 'Bieber' right?

~panic~ panic~!

Fortunately, one thing I've learned throughout the years, just enjoy feel-good music when you hear one. Bieber might be a kid, overplayed, overrated, whiny voice, stupid hair and bla bla bla but if his sugar pop song makes your day a bit better why not just..feel?

Life's too short to take a pop song seriously.

Above all, I still prefer my Ingrid, Robin, Buble, Leona and Jason, thank you very much.

Naughty Bites

2010-05-12T20:13:00.003+08:00

CHAIR. Anyone who reads my blog, my tweets and my Facebook status probably knows that I'm an avid Gossip Girl fan. I blogged about the Season Two Finale in which Chuck finally confessed his undying love for one Blair Waldorf. In this Season Finale, Chuck and Blair holds the spotlight again with one BIG question mark : "Will Blair meets Chuck at the top of the Empire State Building?

My guess? YES. But Blair won't make it on time. She will probably have a last minute epiphany and runs off to the building only to find Chuck gone. Hey, it's 7.01pm! "My heart is closed for you forever" - sounds lame but when Chuck said it, it's perfect. I love Chair but there's no way a second happy ending is lined up for them.

But I am happy to be proved wrong. PLEASE!

GLEE. When did Rachel get so annoying? I liked her in the first half of the season and then she just got...annoying! But I love her voice, except that weird tortured expression she get going on when she sings. My current favorites are Brittany and Santana - especially Brittany. Girl is just so clueless!!!! hahahaha! Emma is adorable and Sue, oh SUE! My favorite TV bitch. Nothing brings it like Sue.

TAN. I've got a tan, doesn't look good on me. The sight of my own skin peeling off is tragic.

STOLEN. Someone stole my favorite vintage blouse from the hostel laundry room. I hope you trip and fall and break your nose!

SECOND. My Red Devils ended up second in the EPL. Don't fuckin' gloat in the comments or I might cyber-bitchslap you. ha ha

CONFIDENCE. My life will never be the same when this week ends. I've always wondered about the extent of my confidence when it comes to things that are not...well, my thing. But one thing for sure, I will NOT let myself down. I'm going to do this for me, and whatever the outcome is, I will make sure that I have ABSOLUTELY nothing to regret. Amen.

DRAMA QUEEN. I got voted as the Drama Queen at the recent B.ED TESL Cohort 3 Farewell Dinner. Not because I am one in real life, just that I used to act on stage. I miss those drama days :)

Well, that's it for now....waitt there's one more. I got my first blog award from Dedz and Manda!

Will blog about it later.

Till the next post, tata!

Over and Out.

2010-05-01T18:43:00.000+08:00

candy roses unicorns and babyblues!

B.Ed TESL is over and done with.

Well, unofficially lah.

But still,

Reaching the finishing line after what feels to be forever and never-ending,

is really, truly fulfilling.

This calls for a...

VICTORY LEAP! :D

WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Want.

2010-04-17T10:56:00.001+08:00

Hope deceives more men than cunning does.

~Vauvenargues

I want something I probably will not get.

Not because I don't deserve it.

Because for some reason,

When I want something so bad (this bad),

Circumstances always find a way to mess it up.

I've got no lucky stars to save me,

A lost cause.

I'm tired of being disappointed

All the mocking whys and hows

I'm tired of healing

The gaping hole always takes forever to mend.

Hope is a dirty word.

Even faith is a nasty accomplice.

Do you think,

If I try not to want it so much

Heaven or whatever will let me have it?

Because if it doesn't,

I think I die a little each time....

Wake Up And Smell The Coffee

2010-04-07T19:13:00.001+08:00

“In the name of the best within you, do not sacrifice this world to those who are its worst.

In the name of the values that keep you alive, do not let your vision of man be distorted by the ugly, the cowardly, the mindless in those who have never achieved his title.

Do not lose your knowledge that man's proper estate is an upright posture, an intransigent mind and a step that travels unlimited roads.

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all.

Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach.

Check your road and the nature of your battle.

The world you desired can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible,
It's yours.”

VAIN.VAIN.VAIN

2010-03-30T11:47:00.000+08:00

TESL RETRO NIGHT 26/04/2010

My muse: Megan Fox:

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Shine On

2010-03-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

This is my life, summarized in one single illustration.

As of today, March 25 2010. 11.24 am, I have about a month and half left to my final semester :)

Time does fly.

Yesterday, March 24 2010, as the clock strikes 12, hello world, I'm a 23-year-old. It was a memorable birthday because it was also the day I turned in the first completed draft of my research paper (the thing that I've given my everything to, in fact it's the most important thing in my life right now) after weeks of dodging my supervisor. The only tragedy of the day is the fact that my parents actually forgot my birthday. It's okay, they will make it up to me..he he he.

I realized that people have started asking me "bila ko mau kawin?", especially at weddings.

Me getting married is not happening anytime soon.

Hence the matchmaking attempts.

Someday, when I'm ready, on my own terms, I will.

Relax will you?

Since this is a belated birthday post, perhaps some reflection of the years gone by should be included. Well:

Despite the crazy workload,

Despite the non-existent social life,

Despite the nonboyfriendness,

Despite some shitty incidents,

I'm a better, stronger, ~~hotter~~, and happier person that all of the past Jessicas combined.

Happy Birthday Jess ;)

You frickin' pwned life.

Just Because.

2010-02-11T17:14:00.000+08:00

If you think Shakespeare is the master of wordy love, then you haven't read Elizabeth Barrett Browning :)

How Do I Love Thee - Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men might strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,–I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!–and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

*****

Beautiful and Honest.

The perfect vow :)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY people!

xoxo

Mall Porn

2010-02-07T15:03:00.003+08:00

Lalalalalalalalala..it's been awhile! Finally I get to sit down and blog about this thing before my train of thought wander off again. The lack of updates is not due to the lack of happenings (trust me, plenty of stuff happened) it's just that my blogging muse went MIA for a while. I don't know about you, but if I can't tell a story right, I wouldn't even attempt to write it. Instead, I'll just hang back and wait until until the sensation of flowing words return. Wouldn't want you to read a crappy piece nor would I subject myself to the crime of taking 10 minutes of your precious time. God, I'm rambling! I've always been a talker. I mean, I'm pretty sure I talked a lot and laughed even more on daily basis. It wouldn't be too presumptuous to see myself as a ray of sunshine :)

Waittttttttttt, this is not entirely about me and my temperament. That's just..uh..warming up?

Go ahead and roll your eyes -_-

hihihihihihihi <-------(genuine laugh. Notice the absence of LOL)

Jeez, I even type my laugh.

I'm crazy like that.

Anyway, I went shopping with my cousins yesterday. It was a Saturday = crowded malls = no parking = traffic jam. The usual. It's totally like NYC on weekends. So, we were on our way to Palm Square when I saw this girl. She was wearing a tight black leggings with a baby tee. A normal sight right? but the said tee is tight AND short = leaving her crotch area completely defined, outlined and...just..exposed...bulging. Don't get me wrong, I think leggings are heaven-sent because they work great with just about anything but DO COVER YOUR JUNK. No one wants/should see that. It's an awkward sight.

Well, if I thought that was awkward, this next girl is even more horrifying. She was wearing a too tight WHITE leggings. First, VPL. You could practically see the outline of the whole panty, could even make out the ribbon on the panty BAND (she was in front of me on the escalator) Second, the appearance of the

cameltoe (google if you don't know what it means). Enough said. If that's not embarrassing, I don't know what is ~shivers~

Leggings can be amazing when you know what goes well with it. It can also go horribly wrong when you don't;

1. get the right size that fits you appropriately. People can certainly see if they are too tight on you.

2. make sure that your crotch is at least mostly covered. Long top, short dresses, skirts etc are a total go but always remember that short and very tight shirts are always a bad idea with leggings.

I've seen many looks that include leggings as part of the attire. Sexy, cute, comfortable, edgy, retro, hip, are pretty adequate adjectives to describe them. The sky is the limit. Flaunt it if you've got it.

Just remember to cover your junk.

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Oh ya, I've got to post this DIY christmas card from BFF Dedz. She's awesome in all things new,old and borrowed. (Note to Dedz: I just got this a few days ago.The Inanam Post Office must have worked effingly slow during the hols. Love the card, esp the greeting..hehe)

see, I am, indeed, a ray of sunshine. :D

Have a good week people!

Random Recollection

2010-01-10T21:29:00.001+08:00

TEN years ago, when I was 13, I've had the world's HUGEST/BIGGEST/HUMONGOUS crush on this boy who always sat in front of me during Sunday Mass. He had this Freddie-Prinze Jr-look, you know, tall with twinkly eyes. I remember feeling breathless whenever our eyes met and that crazy thudding of my heart whenever he's in close proximity. I used to bombard my sister with questions like "so did he look at me today?" or "you think he noticed my new hair?" GAH! Perasaaaaaan betul. I don't think he was even aware of my existence, he always looked so pensive! ~~and cute and wonderful~~. I didn't know his name so I named him Kuzer. In the year of 2000, my favorite code word was Kuzer.

Kuzer itu, Kuzer ini. He was practically everywhere - my diary, notepad, doodles, the sky, the moon, the sun, my dreams - see, my crush was pretty hardcore.

On a beautiful Sunday morning in December 2000, I discovered his real name.

Adrian Ambrews.

But I never saw him again after that Sunday.

Mimang teda jodoh! ~haha~
Wherever you are Adrian, God Bless You.
(n_n)/

Counting Days

2010-01-04T16:59:00.001+08:00

My Final Semester as a TESL-ian have commenced.

I'm almost there...

^_^V

Suan Tian

2009-12-31T17:31:00.002+08:00

pretty.dirty.mess is one year old today.

Happy birthday dear blog! :D

Oh well, this is my last post for 2009. It has been one hell of a year.

Bitter sweet. Jump and fall. Chocolate-Peria (huh?) haha.

I've got no complaints, really.

Only good memories to cancel out the crappy insignificant ones.

What's your NY resolution Jess?

Unlike last year, I've only got one for 2010..that is to

MAKE THINGS HAPPEN

The Slogan ?

A bit of Enthusiasm and Determination won't hurt right?

Happy 2010 people!

Here's to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.

CHEERS:D

The Wait Is Over

2009-12-24T12:03:00.005+08:00

Have a Merry (almost) Christmas! ^_____^ v

WHY I HEART CHRISTMAS:

1. Family Gathering at Tambunan. (There are 33 people in Grandma's house this year. Everyone's home for Christmas!)

2. Gift Exchange (Always the highlight of Christmas morning!)

3. Barbecue (eat!eat!eat!eat!)

4. Party All Night Long (nobody sleeps before at least 1am, even the kids)

5. click! snap* click! pictures (of cute poses, candid moments and wasted people he he he)

6. Christmas Mass :)

7. Movie date with little cousins. (this year, it will be a Thai horror movie, but they didn't know! ~evil laugh~)

8. Sing along to Jingle Bell Rock (my favorite Christmas tune!)

9. Because it's almost impossible to be sad on Christmas

10. Everything (everyone) is red, green, happy, laughing and glowing.

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Lord, in this holy season of prayer and song and laughter, we praise you for the great wonders you have sent us: for shining star and angel's song, for infant's cry in lowly manger. We praise you for the Word made flesh in a little Child. We behold his glory, and are bathed in its radiance.

Be with us as we sing the ironies of Christmas, the incomprehensible comprehended, the poetry made hard fact, the helpless Babe who cracks the world asunder. We kneel before you shepherds, innkeepers, wisemen. Help us to rise bigger than we are.

Amen.

Walking On Sunshine

2009-12-21T17:00:00.004+08:00

I RAN SHIRTLESS WITH A CONDOM BCOS I HAVE AMAZING BOOBS!

what's yours? :D

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=What could possibly go wrong today? Let me count the ways=

Rain ruined your laundry : "crap!"
Dog ate your breakfast :"demmit!"
Condescending pricks : "eff you!"
Where-is-the-damn-thing-i-thought-i-put-it-here-yesterday-did-somebody-mess-with-my-stuff?? : "scheeeet!"
Black outs @ power cuts in the middle of the day : "WTF?WTF!
Why is she NOT dead yet? : "omg, I'm going to poke my eyes out if she is not dunzo by the next episode"
Neighbor's radio is waaay too loud at 7 in the morning : "grrrrr!"

Even in December, things can get..overwhelming in little ways that gets your panties in a twist.

Rise to the occasion, grumpy people

and just..

CHILL & LAUGH HARDER
^_^V

Cogito, Ergo Sum

2009-12-17T18:53:00.000+08:00

This is not a self-absorbed entry. Rest assured that this blog is gag-reflex friendly.

Read without care.

Random Fact #1

With the obscene amount of time spent in virtual/academic world, house chores accomplishments are strangely fulfilling.

Random Fact # 2

Why oh why didn't I think of doing this instead of leaving the question unanswered?

Math used to be a nightmare :)

Random Fact # 3

If such notice exists, I'd say it's invisible.

Random Fact # 4

When facing the assault of camera flashes,

I'd do b!ch face before showing them pearly whites.

Random Fact #5

I think 500 Days of Summer is beautiful in a heartbreaking kind of way.

......

You have your way. I have my way.

As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way,

it does not exist.

...............................fin.....................................

Futue Te Cockroaches!

2009-12-09T16:31:00.004+08:00

I fucking hate cockroaches!

They just pop out of nowhere!!

Last night, I was happily watching Supernatural on my laptop and suddenly two cockroaches emerge from behind the screen, onto the keyboard and threw me off my chair.

I don't know how it happened but I was so shocked that I fell off my chair and landed ass first on the floor.

Hurts like hell.
Repelled beyond words.

My dad heard the commotion, saw the cockroaches and thought it was funny.

My dad can be so insensitive sometimes.

I was pissed tahap matahari and it increased tenfold when the said cockroaches were still wandering around my study table. I really want to beat both to death but then I'm gonna have to clean up the gooey smelly mess of the remains.

That's right EUWWWWW!

I waited for about 10 minutes before the cockroaches sauntered down the table and out of the room.

#&%&^#&^#&^@%#&^!!

Six reasons why I hate cockroaches:

1. yes, they pop out of nowhere.

2. they are hideous

3. I heard that if they pee on your eyes, you'll turn blind.

4. they fly

5. they bite

6. they don't go away even if you say "shoo!shoo!" or make growling noises. Rats will run away but these punks will charge ahead like nobody's business. They are not afraid of you, instead they swing that tentacles defiantly as if saying "I own you bitch".

I fucking hate cockroaches.

My Cup Of Tea

2009-12-06T19:58:00.004+08:00

There is nothing like Glee on TV.

It's easily the best new show of 2009 (I'm bias, I know) but what is there not to love about Glee?

To be honest, I wasn't a fan before because the plot summary didn't appeal to me. I remember muttering to myself "Oh great, now we have high school musical on TV" ~roll eyes~

What possessed me to change my mind you ask?

onedayigotboredandsincei'monholidayineedanextradistraction

A friend recommended Glee.

So, why not right? If the pilot episode tanked, I could always split.

But it didn't and I never looked back.

Yes, the plot may lack originality. Since it's set in a high school, you could pinpoint the usual suspects. However, it takes nothing away from the show. The singing is flawless, my personal favorite (so far) is It's My Life/Confessions mash-up and the group rendition of Nelly's Ride with Me.

Each episode is a delightful mix of humor, drama, tension, a bit of angst and positive moral values.

High School Musical has nothing on Glee.

Another plus?

The villain is in the form of Sue Sylvester.

I'll get down on my knees and worship the ground that she walks on because she takes the meaning of wicked bitch to a whole new level.

I've never felt so much need to punch a TV character until her!

There have been plenty of shows that started strong and then fell from the peak of their first few episodes. Glee shows no signs of faltering. And even if it does, the twelve episodes that I have seen will stand among the best of 2009.

Yes, that good.

It's official, I'm in Glee.

Too Nice Of A Disease

2009-12-04T15:05:00.003+08:00

I avoid confrontations like the plague. I play nice most of the time. I'm lucky that people are nice to me most of the time. People who matter of course. Last week, Nice Jess soared to an all time high. You see, I decided to terminate my Friendster account as some of my friends have canceled theirs. Let's face it, cool 20-somethings don't do Friendster. Elaborate? Irrelevant, because you know why. Bah, back to the story.

This is my FS Cancellation form:

Initially, I ticked the "I switched to another social networking Site" box.

So naturally I have to list the site that I switched to.

Facebook.

And then it hit me. Punya kasian the FS admin kalau dorang baca ni. People snubbing their site for another. I felt even worse reading the benefits of having a FS account listed above the cancellation form. Besa-besa ja ba tu benefits, camana mo kasi kalah Facebok kan? I'm pretty sure it's there to beg people to stay with FS, but once you've had the taste of FB you know you can never go back. (Dramatik kan?)

So, I only ticked the box that says "My friends stopped using Friendster". Hope it softens the blow a bit.

Sounds crazy. Hell even I think I'm crazy!

I am thaaat nice.

It's always between two extremes.

Either bagussssssss betul or jahaaaaatttt gila babz depending on the situation.

Either way, I always get the job done :D

Say Grace

2009-12-03T12:38:00.003+08:00

The best things in life are free. Yes and No. I'm on the fence. I love money. I love the simple pleasures of life. A combination of both makes the world go round. I'm a realist like that. Anyways, that's not the point of this post. I found this "happy list" while stalking some girl's tumblr. It made me smile :)

The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has to Offer

Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.
Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass him (her) on the street or in the subway. He (she) glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.

* I have to disagree with skinny dipping. It's not so much about peeping toms, more like fear of 'water creatures" (euwwwwwwwww!).

God, I take too many things for granted sometimes.

Thank you for the reminder.

Playing Barbie

2009-11-29T14:41:00.009+08:00

"Dress shabbily, they notice the dress.
Dress impeccably, they notice the woman."

I'm not much of a fashion buff but when it comes to dressing up(or down), I love attires that exude sexy bad-ass vibe, clothing that acknowledges femininity with masculine undertones. Apparently, floral dresses and combat boots can be best friends after all:) Retro style is also a win for me, along with Kristen Stewart bed hair (not the mullet).

2009 is indeed, the year to let loose and be merry. So, what's you biggest fashion experiment this year?

Pics credit to: Face Hunter and LookBook

Go Lait Fai-eh

2009-11-15T15:55:00.006+08:00

"Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me.."

I love that song

I love<----this picture.

I love Week 2 of November.

Come Monday, it's Hideous Week 3:(

Picture Perfect

2009-11-06T18:22:00.004+08:00

When I get married, I mean before I actually get married, vows, rings and all, I'm gonna make sure that I have at least one pre-wedding picture like this.

My future husband and I, on a bike. Me wearing a white dress (so that people know it's a wedding picture. Still, Kristen looks great! ). Him..emm, exactly like what Rob is wearing in this picture. A wall-sized version of that picture will be gracing..emm..one of the walls in our future home.
I haven't met my future husband..yet.
I hope he loves the camera! haha

Body Conscious

2009-11-04T06:00:00.006+08:00

Your dresses should be tight enough to show you're a woman
and
loose enough to show you're a lady.
Edith Head

I absolutely adore this goddess of a dress. It exudes a sexy-classy elegance without the slutty undertones. Body Con, they call it. Some said you have got to have a toned body = flat stomach to pull it off. So, the basic rule is - the stomach must not protrude significantly, but that's not really a big problem, is it? Three solutions come to mind:

1. choose a dark/brown patterns. These colors are the most forgiving for a bumpy stomach.
2. Do buy a size bigger. Body con dresses are clingy, tight fitting types. So no 'oversize' issues here.
3. Corsets

Should I just ignore the fact that I have no current occasion to wear it to? What if BodyCon becomes a cliche next year? The dress will rot to death in my closet!
Oh well, a girl can never have too many dresses. or shoes.
hehehe.

p/s Jess loves ASOS :)
http://www.asos.com/

Take Five

2009-11-03T09:53:00.007+08:00

"It's fine to recline on the flat of one's spine,

With never a thought in one's head:
It's lovely to be staring up at the sky
When others are earning their bread.
It's great to feel one with the soil and the sun,
Drowned deep in the grasses so tall;
Oh it's noble to sweat, pounds and dollars to get,
But - it's grand to do nothing at all"
-"Laziness" by Robert William Service

Why Can't Life Be A Picture Of Contentment At All Times?
Like this?

A Neat Mess

2009-10-31T11:51:00.012+08:00

Do you mind if I invade your personal space? - anon

Girls Night never failed to yield interesting encounters. Like this one:

"Look at me six packs. It's real babe, touch 'em" ~lifts up his shirt~
And so I did. Impressed, yes (ok, I was curious. I've never touched a six/four pack abs before), but what makes the whole thing ridiculous was when he said
"E's muscles are bigger than mine and he wants to go back with you".
I think I LoL-ed in response. Amusing, really.

He must be drunk or that must have worked every time.
He reminds me of that Shania Twain song - it goes something like this -

Okay, so you're Brad Pitt
That don't impress me much
So you got the looks but have you got the touch
Don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright

My point is - six pack is hot. Others might have tapped that. But uno-nighto-stand is not my thing. I have nothing against people who embrace that. Each of us have different versions of "living life to the fullest".
Mine does not include random hookups.
We dance, we talk, we laugh, we drink, we eat,
I know your name, you know mine, I've seen..err..touched your six pack abs and you loved my rendition of I Will Survive
But we don't leave together.
Capische?

p/s showing off your abs to get lucky is a terrible pick up line. Just saying.

A Gem Of A Goodbye

2009-10-10T09:26:00.007+08:00

"I am awesome because you are, too"

A tribute post for my Form 4 Perdana

The day before, they stabbed my poor heart with indifference.
The next day, they surprised me with a crazy show of gratitude that only they could pull off. It just so happens that my mentor, Sir Eric was in the class as well. The loonies told him that "kami mau komplen ni pasal teacher sama Sir". I was taken aback. What complaints? Well, I did shout at them, make them do the embarrassing 'pinky promise' a couple of times and bombard them with trying questions and sarcastic comments. But I did those for their sake, always with the best intentions at heart. Maybe I missed something.
After a few frantic "advance explanations" to Eric for whatever complaints that they have, I sat up straight and said "ok, let me have it". The weird part was, nobody wants to go first. One of them breaks the silence, "bah oklah. Since teda org mau mula, kami ada mau kasi tunjuk sama teacher" said Kezia, (the ringleader). They made me close my eyes. In that instance, I knew exactly where it was going. But what they did, took my breath away.

The gifts are not random at all. They gave me a box full of candies "untuk balas balik semua gula2 yg teacher selalu bagi kami" (Ronail). The Cadbury Classic Collection because I DO love chocolates, I might have told them that during one of my ramblings in class. As for the clip in the CD, words fail me. Never thought that appreciation could feel this..heavenly :-

I told them once that it's gonna take a lot to make me cry. In the end, they reduce me to this:

pic belongs to Kezia. (teacher 'pinjam' pic ni k)

They are a bunch of loonies My favorite loonies.
Thank you, 4 Perdana, for being awesome, all of you have made me a better teacher.
You will always be one of my favorite reminder on why I choose to be in the teaching profession. Somebody once said that one can never forget her first students. I couldn't agree more.

Tattooed to memory, a permanent treasure. For Always.
Love,
Miss Jessy

a pretty a day

2009-10-05T17:20:00.004+08:00

“I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks.”
A post dedicated to my Form 4 Persona

We never had it perfect.
I tried. You shrugged.
But the funny thing is,
Our story did not go according to my liking
You went ahead anyway,
And gave me the best, unconventional ending ever.
Thank You 4 Persona :)

Hairy Business

2009-09-23T12:44:00.008+08:00

"Attired to please herself: no gems of any kind
She wore, nor aught of borrowed gloss in Nature's stead;
And, then her long, loose hair flung round her head
Fell carelessly behind"

Bed hair is Kristen Stewart.

Why can't I roll out of bed and look like that?

Dear Santa,

I want Kristen's bed hair for Christmas.

I need to cut down the routine 2o minutes "hair-time".
Pretty please with a big fat cherry on top.

Love, Jess.

Reel @ Real

2009-09-21T02:08:00.008+08:00

Robsten aka Edwarella

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Rob and Kris holding hands...not! The wonders of Photoshop manipulation ya'll:)
Can somebody teach me how to do that?
I would love to manipulate my own pictures:P
Pic Credits to Ellashy

A Peck Of Gold

2009-09-19T10:34:00.005+08:00

'Relief' class. Form 4.
Bunch of live wires.
Time's up. Making a move to leave when..

"teacher"
"hmm?"
"nah"
"oh"
~shy smile
"thank you"

Oh, the small things that can move you.
It's like discovering a peck of gold on a black canvas.
A pleasant surprise.

Jess is artsy after all (Part 2)

2009-09-18T07:14:00.006+08:00

I Wandered Lonely As A Cloud by William Wordsworth

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Out-did the sparkling leaves in glee;
A poet could not be but gay,
In such a jocund company!
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

p/s gotta get out more. enjoy the view. be one with nature.

Jess is artsy after all.

2009-09-17T16:48:00.005+08:00

Poetry.
Let's face it, poetry to me, used to be a collection of gibberish that requires deep thinking to get to the real meaning (s).
I swear I could never get poetry. I remember reading a few in high school.
If, The Road Not Taken, Monsoon History, Si Tenggang Homecoming and Death In The Opposite House.
I understand them. Oh, the wonders of BUKU RUJUKAN.
But I never cared for them. Poetry is like a bad smell that I knew I had to endure.

Poetry, fortunately is not boring. It's intriguing. Alphabets sewn together to make lines of words.
Lines that are traitorous because they never conform to your understanding. At least to me.
That's why poetry and I don't mix. We will never be on the same page.

And then I changed. Five years of doing literature can do that to you. (pun intended:D)
I stopped worrying about whether my understanding of poems matched with other people.
I realized that I am not like other people. I do not feel like them. I do not think like them. I should dance to my own beat. I have been afraid to break away, scared that my own interpretation is gonna sound silly to the ears of artsy fartsy people.

Oh how wrong I have been.
Poetry is many things to different people.
The beauty of it is..
when it evokes some sort feeling in your heart (or stomach),
when it resembles the story of your life narrated in 10 compact sentences
and especially,
when it gets you through the day like a mojo that unlocks one of the many mysteries of life.

I decided that I do get poetry.
I even like some of them.
I am entitled NOT to like some of them.
I may understand them differently than other people.
But that does not make them right and me, wrong.
Because I am me. Other people will never be a second me.

Yes, just like my dear, dear books,
Poetry let me be me.
Me:)

+++++

Here's a recent favorite:

He Wishes For The Cloths Of Heaven by William Butler Yeats

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

More Than A Beautiful Mess

2009-09-09T19:27:00.004+08:00

If a doctor, lawyer, or dentist had 40 people in his office at one time, all of whom had different needs, and some of whom didn't want to be there and were causing trouble, and the doctor, lawyer, or dentist, without assistance, had to treat them all with professional excellence for nine months, then he might have some conception of the classroom teacher's job.
~Donald D. Quinn

Dear Teaching,
Been telling everyone i'm gonna be a teacher someday
yes, yes, since I was 7.
Here I am, finally living the dream
A far cry from my ridiculous ideal.
All these times, it was just silly crush,
And you, being unpredictable and stubborn and rude, are slowly killing me
But I think I can love you.
Heck, I'm halfway there already.
This thing, between you and I,
is only going to get better.
Believe
:)

Chair-Chanting

2009-08-26T11:57:00.003+08:00

"When we are good, we are grand"

~ Chuck and Blair

Looking at these super adorable SEASON 3 pictures,
how can I NOT
"jump-squeal-wish-pray"
for today to be
September 14 already?? ~sigh~
* credits to FanPop and GossipGirl Insider for pics

Romeo And Beauty

2009-08-21T22:10:00.006+08:00

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."

~Dr Seuss~

Of all the classes that I have entered for relief, 3 Wira is probably the most adorable. In terms of manners, they are amazing for a bunch of 15yearolds. They always go "Cigu, ada teka teki ka?" or "Cigu, mari bah sini. kita kawan-kawan dulu". Haha. Cute.

Well, something very cute happened today. There's a Romeo in the class who's hopelessly in love with his classmate. Obviously the beauty in the class la. It turns out that Beauty knows Romeo likes her, she just wants him to VERBALIZE the confession aka say it to her face. Translation: she likes him too. No letters or messengers allowed. Smart girl.
But Romeo, having made his intentions clear to everyone in the class except to the one who matters the most, is having confidence issues. Dude looks so pensive and nervous that I felt sorry for him. Before leaving the class, I left him with a piece of advice, "Go on. Tell her. or you'll regret it later". Hope he mans up and just tell her already.

Ah, young love.
Been there, done that.
Hope they will do better:)

Dear Life,

2009-08-11T14:53:00.004+08:00

"If I am destined to lose,
why am I still in this sick game?
Go on,
make the kill.
Or you could be nicer,
and pull me back up"

RogenIzed

2009-08-05T21:47:00.004+08:00

Here is a genuinely funny guy.
He may not be the hottest thing to behold,
but sense of humor ranks higher than looks in my book.
No, I do not kid.
Yes, I would date him in a jiff.
Go watch 'Funny People' ya'll.

Gagged

2009-08-02T17:32:00.003+08:00

"Fashion is all about eventually becoming naked"
~Anonymous

Some of my students are big fans of Lady Gaga. So here's my advice, girls (and boys), you can copy her hairstyle (minus the dye) and her dance moves, but NEVER, i repeat, NEVER, her choice of clothing. I understand the need to be fashion forward, but walking around wearing vahjayjay-flashing, bikini-inspired catsuit? Really?. Halloween is not a daily occasion. Unless you are the Lady herself. I'm all for originality, trademark and uniqueness but this is definitely not hot.

*Taken from PerezHilton

~ dodging tomatoes and pies~

Getting Up and Over

2009-07-19T10:57:00.003+08:00

"what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger"

For as long as I live,
I will never forget the tremble of your lips as you endure the pain,
Your bony hands, your beautiful smile,
Your face as you surrendered to eternal sleep.

I miss you.
I wish I could turn back time and talk to you more when you still could.
but it never crossed my mind that you would leave us.
I want you to know that we are all doing our best to cope,
It just hurts so much because it's all too sudden.

I love you.
I know you'll be happier up there
So, I won't cry anymore..
I'll remember you as the amazing lady that I know you were.

R.I.P

Not Done Yet

2009-06-30T16:02:00.010+08:00

All but Death, can be Adjusted --
Dynasties repaired --
Systems -- settled in their Sockets --
Citadels -- dissolved --

Wastes of Lives -- resown with Colors
By Succeeding Springs --
Death -- unto itself -- Exception --
Is exempt from Change -- -
- Emily Dickinson
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It was one of those "where were you?" moments.
Michael Jackson's passing away is a big deal. He was like Colgate, Milo and Nokia.
A part of our lives that we thought would always be there.
When news of his death rocked the world, we were left shocked.
Even me. I'm not like, a bigcrazydiehard fan but a few of his songs are my personal favorites and the moonwalk never cease to amaze me.
This is how it feels when a legend died...empty.

A day after, my mum told me that a former schoolmate of mine died in a tragic car accident. He was only 21. My sister used to have a crush on him up for 3 years (dari darjah 4 smpai darjah 6~kids). I was best friends with his big brother. After primary school, I've never seen them again. Went to different high schools and soon they became remnants of my childhood memory. So when I saw his picture on the Sunday paper, I was struck by just how unfair and sudden death can be at times.
He was too young to die, but he was taken anyway.

Being young, apparently is not an excuse. Death doesn't judge the years of one's existence, it takes you away regardless of how Life insists that you have so much ahead of you.

God, I have so much ahead of me..
I want to graduate, take my family to Bali for vacation, watch Man Utd home games at Old Trafford, get my Masters&PhD, buy my own car/house/LV bags, get a German Shepherd, travel to Europe, wear a bikini at a beach somewhere in the States, maybe California and get a nice tan, go to concerts/Broadway..etc..etc..it goes on and on.
Oh heck, I haven't even fallen in love properly yet.

Suddenly the future feels unsure, slipping dangerously from my grasp.
How could one be so sure that they will still be here tomorrow?

Angst aside, the death of this friend is a reality sucker punch that really drives the point home.. that i just feel..so thankful to be alive. So goddamn thankful....
to just to be here, being Jess(though being me is not so awesome sometimes) and breathing..
God, I am not done yet.

*Rest in Peace*
Mitchell Evan A.(1988-2009)
Michael Joseph Jackson (1958-2009)

The FedEx Tribute

2009-06-09T08:30:00.008+08:00

"I can go on with the rest of my career in peace knowing I don't have to worry about never winning Roland Garros" - Roger Federer

I've seen him crying on two occasions.
One, the heartbreaking tears at the Australian Open final.(blogged about it here)
Two, the relieved tears after winning his first French Open trophy(the pic above), thus completing a career slam.
On that Sunday night, as I watch the Greatest.Of.All.Time lifting up the Coupe des Mousquetaires , I knew that I have witnessed a moment of historic greatness. A privilege of a lifetime:)
14 Grand Slams and counting....
Congratulations Roger Federer!
Enjoy your throne in the pantheon of greats.

June's A Pronk

2009-06-03T17:42:00.008+08:00

"Life is full of choices, if you have the guts to go for it. That's why I get immediately bored with anyone's complaining about how boring their life is, or how bad is their town. Fucking leave and go somewhere else. Or don't."

- Oh Henry Rollins, not everyone is a rock star. I see your point but I'd rather vent.

When June descends, I know exactly what's going to hit me.

Boredom. Idleness. House chores.

July is not that far off. The craze,buzz and fuss of hectic life is looming ahead.

So there's ample time to ponder and wonder, to plan and contemplate previous and predicted failures.

Equilibrium. It's sucking me in.

It is during this period, this state of idleness that seduces the mind to think TOO far ahead,
daring one to toy with dark thoughts...stuff that miseries are made of.
I'm not the brooding type.
So it pisses me off when I'm forced to be one.

****
On the bright side, May was amazing.
Comrades reunited. Friendship renewed. Plenty of love, fun and laughter to be cherished.
(Every reunion is a type of heaven:D)

(1) Nina's Engagement Day

(2) High School BFF reunion:)

Oh, and this....

Another lifelong dream about to be fulfilled.
Hopefully bad luck doesn't "if-you-seek-amy" with other untimely obligations.
Now, off to deflower my FRIENDS dvd set.
Till next time peeps!

Kiss Diss

2009-05-26T10:23:00.016+08:00

"What are all these kissings worth,
If thou kiss not me?"
~Percy Bysshe Shelley, Love's Philosophy

Yahoo's OMG featured a poll starring Robert Pattinson, and you gotta be surprised at the result. Apparently, at least 63% (and counting ?) of the world population doesn't want to pay a dime to kiss Rob because....

they don't find him attractive? hahahaha.
How on earth did this happen when someone out there paid $28000 for his kiss? (or rather "a peck on the cheek") ?
Personally, I would rather kiss Edward Cullen.

Credits to Fanpop

Yes, they are two different persona. Edward is a hot brooding vampire who will love you..intensely and passionately..for as long as he lives
(Stephanie Meyer will make sure of that :P)
while Rob (who is equally hot and British) is going to break to your tender heart because he's a Hollywood star. A happy ending doesn't thrive in Hollywood.

Of course at the end of the day, you gonna have to SNAP OUT OF IT because your real life prince charming may not be a vampire or british etcetera, but he's here and he loves you.

*A girl can dream though*

The Naked Truth: 1 - Smiling Woes

2009-05-25T11:17:00.008+08:00

"If you don't have a smile, I'll give you one of mine"

Don't you just love her smile? A perfect set of teeth, even and gleamingly white. What I would give for THAT set of teeth! ~sigh~

I have always been aware that my teeth are a bunch of uneven embarrassment. But that never stopped me from smiling of course. That would be stupid. However, these past few days I have been thinking a lot about them teeth. I don't normally do this - looking into the mirror and being overly critical of what I see. Especially not my teeth, but for obvious reasons, I can no longer ignore them.

It all started when this artist dude insisted on taking my pictures. This took place at the backstage of the recent UN event.

Me: "byk lagi tu unduk ngadau sana, ko pi la ambil gambar dorang"
Dude: "suda sa ambil gambar dorang suma. alaa, buli la bah. kijap ja ni"
Me: "bah ok la" (sporting sajala kan..hihihi)

So he practically shoved his digital camera in front of my face, mau ambil up-close la konon. 1,2,3 snaps and we are done. Then he requested something that really made me laugh.

"emm, buli sa gambar ko lagi? tapi...cuba jangan kasi kluar gigi ko"
~points at my pic in his camera~
"tidak rata bah gigi ko"

Now how would you react to that? I laughed. Because it's true and he's the first stranger to point that out. Because of that mind-blowing honesty, I agreed to another snap - this time, without the teeth. haha.

This is why I hate close-ups. I don't have THE TEETH for it.

After that, I can't help but look at my teeth and wonder what could be done with it. There is a way to fix them of course. There's a tool called Porcelain Veneers that could "radically redesign your smile". With dental veneers, we can fix any number of naturally occurring problems from discoloration, uneven or worn-out teeth, to a "gummy" smile." says the front page of Aesthetika Dental Center.

If it could be fixed, why not? It will not change who I am, the word 'improvement' is more like it. More importantly, I'm not doing it because of what others said (ok,maybe a little :P). It's more like a personal satisfaction. Besides, pouting and crooked smiles for pictures are getting old. I have too much of those.

The truth is plain & simple :I'm sick of NOT being able to take close-ups because of my teeth.
And I do love taking pictures.
I should really get a smile makeover in the near future:)
But if you think this gonna stop from smiling-with-teeth, it won't.
They are not perfect but I'm fond of them.
Besides, what are 'angles' for? :p

(n_^) v

I'm Just Not That Into You

2009-05-22T12:34:00.005+08:00

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up:

if a boy punches you he likes you,
never try to trim your own bangs,
and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending.
Every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it:
..the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule.
but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs.
how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't,
the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave.
and
maybe..
a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future.
maybe the happy ending is just moving on.
or maybe the happy ending is this..
knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment...
you never gave up hope"

**********
Perez Hilton got his hands on the New Moon poster that was supposedly leaked online. I love it, i think it suits the essence of New Moon:)

Edward's "I-love-you-but-I-have-to-leave-you" expression is a perfect 10.
Jacob's scowl pretty much warns Edward to "stay away, Bella is happy and safe with me!"
Bella looks torn.
Since Jacob will get more screen time with Bella,
the reunion between Bella and Edward better be good.

*****
I just have to share these:
Credits to the amazing people at Fanpop!

***********
Oh well, thank God for on-screen fairytales.
It makes reality pales in comparison
and generally makes the world a happier place..
if only for a while.

The Hotness of May

2009-05-19T09:45:00.007+08:00

Chuck: "I love you too"

Blair: "Like, can you say it twice?"

Chuck: ~laughs~

Blair: "No I'm serious, say it twice"

Chuck:"I love you, I love you, that's three, four,I love you.."

Wow, it's been ages since my last entry! So much has been going on lately that I can't afford to spare a few minutes to post a quick entry, not that the happenings are very 'happening' anyway. Practicum will start in July, I can't say I'm excited. Not yet. I'll reserve the fear, anxiety, excitement and giddiness for July:)

Last Sunday, I had the opportunity to be part of the UN Inanam 09 competition. Not as a contestant, tapi jadi tukang touch-up my sis. I had no idea how we ended up there, but one thing led to another, and Dee (my sis), who was never really into UN was suddenly thrust into the district level stage. We didn't know what we were in for until it's too late.haha

The thing about joining UN is one has to be prepared mentally and physically. Penat bah tu rushing sana sini, jadi pengiring ja pun suda penat:) Dee kept complaining "sa tia pandai jalan owh, camanala ni?". It's true, her catwalk was disastrous tapi asal suda try, oklah ba kan. We enjoyed the whole thing despite the stress and a few "bikin panas" moments. I didn't even get to take pics of myself, the bane of being the photographer! ~sigh dramatically~

*DeeDee

On a different note, some of my favorite series has reached their season finale.

CHUCK : I absolutely love the fact that he and Sarah are finally together for REAL and Chuck knows kungfu! haha.. Can't wait for Season 3!

PRISON BREAK: I hated the ending. Some of you may like it, but the fact that Michael left a son doesn't compensate for his death. A true happy ending would have to include him, Sara and their little boy living happily ever after. Damn the writers!

HOUSE: Phewww, I didn't see that coming. House checked into a psychiatric hospital while Chase and Cameron tie the knot. I wonder what's gonna happen to House...bring on Season 6 already!

HEROES: Sylar is the new Nathan. Other than that, i can't seem to remember what transpired in the episode. I wonder why...

GOSSIP GIRL: ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I actually screamed when Chuck said the three magic words to Blair...like five frickin' times!!!! Now that's what I call a rocking finale!

*Team Chair/Bluck

Another plus, Manchester United are CHAMPIONS again.
A suhweeeeeeet win!

A great week:)
Till next time,
XOXO

A Quick Post

2009-05-06T17:07:00.002+08:00

Things are not going well with..NOT just my internet connection, but the telephone line is an even bigger nuisance. Won't be on9 much until the good people at Telekom do something about it.
I'll be back.
VERY SOON:)
Oh, anyone knows where to get the tickets for Man United VS Malaysia XI?

Random Act Of Stupidity

2009-04-07T14:27:00.006+08:00

"Every man must die sooner or later, but good books must be preserved."

After hours of going from rack to rack..
patiently pulling out one SUPERTHICK journal after another,
endlessly scanning the titles, conveniently printed in small letters,
all that while putting up with a stiff neck and a buzzing head at the same time.

Finally..
I found the right journal,

but..

the part that I wanted had been ripped out.
If i ever get my hands on the idiot, ((*&(*&(*!
Ever heard of a photocopy machine?
or that you can actually borrow the journal to photocopy outside should the machine in the library doesn't work?
COMMON SENSE PEOPLE!

Almost There.

2009-04-04T20:25:00.008+08:00

"Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and i’ll be the princess

It 's a love story baby just say yes"

-Love Story,Taylor Swift

It's raining. Taufik's tag too tempting to pass:-)

1. Do you think you're HOT? ------> hotter than ice
2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda ---->

3.Kenapa anda suka gambar ini? ------> cuz I miss her:)
4.Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?-------> Thursday 2/3/09
5.Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?-----> The One by Memphis Bleek feat. Rihanna
6.Apa yang anda sedang buat selain selesaikan tag ini? ------> blogshopping
7.Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan panggilan apa?----> teda. just jess is ok.
8.Tag lagi 6 orang. Soalan seterusnya ada kaitan dengan orang yang anda tag!

Nell
Dee
Tata
Cynta
Kichi
Natalia

9. Siapa no.1 pada anda? ----> My bff through high school
10. Orang no.3 ada hubungan dengan siapa? ----> Waggy.
11. Kata sesuatu berkenaan orang no. 5? ----> crazywackybeatch
12. Bagaimana dengan no.4?-------> the last time i met her was in 2002.
13. Siapa no.2?-----? my sister
14. Bagi pesanan pada org. no.6-----> see you soon babe! ~wink~

I looooooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sleeping:)

Merry-Go-Round

2009-03-27T20:15:00.006+08:00

If I just breathe

Let it fill the space in between
I'll know everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

-Michelle Branch "Breathe"

Do you rush through each day as if on the fly,
never catching up no matter how you try?
When the day is done do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores running through your head?

You better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

When you’re running so fast to get somewhere.
When you worry and hurry through your day
You miss half the fun of getting the day,
It is like an unopened gift just thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower.
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

~ I officially turn 22 last Tuesday.
And life didn't get any easier.~

Pah Dearest

2009-03-19T22:09:00.004+08:00

This is to fulfill my obligation as a good friend to Pah Sharihana, who desperately wants me to do this tag ~dramatic sigh~ haha.

Describe 10 things about the person who tagged you.

Pah ni sempoi, lucu dan mempunyai ketawa yg amat merdu.
Pah ni best kalo dibawa bershopping, melancong dan menyanyi d k-box.
Pah ni mempunyai sepasang bulu mata yg tebal, panjang dan lentik. Sangat memukau jika dilihat dari jarak dekat.
Pah ni suka pakai gloss. Jenama pilihan ialah Maybelline.
Pah suka makan mashed potatoes.
Pah tinggal serumah dengan Dewi di hostel Akasia, Seksyen 18.
Pah belum pernah pergi konsert.
Pah klu pergi kelas selalu stylo dari atas sampai bawah.
Pah adalah antara peneraju rentak "shabooya" d Maktab Gaya.
Pah pandai menyanyi sambil berjoget.

Genting Highlands 2009.

Google Perv

2009-03-18T19:48:00.007+08:00

"He had ambitions, at one time, to become a sex maniac, but he failed his practical"
-Les Dawson

Because of the *excessive use* of F-word in my previous posts, (totally unintended of course, and anger-driven), some pervert got directed to my blog when ~presumably~ he was looking for:

~squint~
Apparently dude has a fetish for incestuous copulation.
DISGUSTING!
&JKGUTU%%$%#%$%$!
I'm going to stop here before the ranting gets nasty.
What has the world become?

Seriously, WTF?

2009-03-14T23:29:00.004+08:00

The match is over, but the EPL isn't,
but they are celebrating as if the season is over. (pffffffttttttthhhh)
I guess when you beat the Champions of the WORLD, EUROPE, and ENGLAND,
It's almost like winning the premiership you haven't won for 19 years and counting.

Reality check: I'm dissapointed with our performance,
I thought it would get better after the Inter game.
Losing is not something that we are accustomed to, and losing against Liverfool is, perhaps even worse that losing the Cup.
On the bright side, we are still on for the Quintuple and maintained our top position.
Vidic, I still love you:)

Some things are just not meant to be.
We will bounce back. We always do.
Oh, I know so:)

***

p/s This is a strange night, really. I had a good day shopping and book-hunting at Times Square and the Summit.
Obviously, my good day is fucked up.
Good Night.

Wooing Made Easy

2009-03-10T17:54:00.008+08:00

These days, you don't even have to meet the person to ask for his/her phone number.
With the existence of Facebook/Friendster/Tagged/Myspace. etc,
all you have to do is type a couple of lines and hope for the best.
It's time saving,
even works as a face-saving device from the shame of face2face rejection.

In my case,
I don't do phone numbers exchange with online strangers.
Now don't go accusing me of being snobbish and standoffish,
I just feel it's safer that way.
(n_n)/
Sorry.

Of Licence, Boys, and Luck

2009-03-08T18:06:00.010+08:00

"I won't worry my life away"

- Jason Mraz (The Remedy)

"Too lucky.
It has to be luck.
And a bit of determination and strong will.
Or else this week would be a total waste"

For starters,
I am now legal on the road.
Passed my JPJ test last Wednesday!

Guess where I celebrated?

At the Jason Mraz's concert (Stadium Negara, KL)
He is simply AWESOME! I came as a so-so fan, and went out a fanatic fan. He had a fab backing band, and an even better voice than on record. When he belted out "If It Kills Me", I swear I almost fainted cuz his voice is so beautiful and haunting and heart-wrenching at the same time.
You have to be there to know the feeling! So, let me give it to you straight:
Jason is HOT + SEXY
and most of all
a WONDERFUL + PASSIONATE performer.
You could tell how much he loves what he does:)
Thank you for making my first concert memorable, xoxo

I was in the pit and look at how CLOSE we were at one point! hihi. Blurry shot coz it's hard to maintain a steady hand when everyone keeps pushing and screaming!

After-show:)

p/s A special holla to my cuz, Yen! Never thought that we would see each other there:-)
It was a pleasant surprise (n_n)/

What A Week:-)

I Dream Of Coach

2009-03-01T13:00:00.004+08:00

I've never been a fan of branded goods,
my fashion rule is simple: "why should i splurge when i can get a similar one at a cheaper price?"
Besides...
I.am.always.broke
am.not.rich.either.
I live by my scholarship and allowance money
That should explains it.

p/sThere is one exception though, I don't buy replicas. Almost did once but never will.ever.

Anyways,
that was the case until I fell in love with this bag a few months ago..

The retail price in Malaysia is about RM 1500++,
A few Malaysia-based blogshops are selling it at a slightly cheaper price,
and some do offer installments
BUT STILL..
I will have to restrain myself from shopping and eating properly for two months.
It will be like signing my death sentence. ~sigh~

Ever since that fateful night a few months ago,
I've been an obsessive fan of Coach.
Been stalking the Coach official site and a few other Coach blogshops for quite sometime now.
There was one time when I ~almost~ buy this cute leather framed french purse, priced at
RM 425, the cheapest of all the Coach purses I think,
but someone else beat me to it.
My first Coach purchase will have to wait then:(
Therefore, I hereby declare that..
One of my resolution before the year ends..
is to own at least ONE of those gorgeous Coach babies.
Save More, Shop Less.
Let's hope I don't get sidetracked.
Amen.

***

All people dream, but not equally.
Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their mind,
Wake in the morning to find that it was vanity.

But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people,
For they dream their dreams with open eyes,
And make them come true.

D.H Lawrence

Perverted Pests

2009-02-27T20:10:00.003+08:00

Life had not been kind to me for the last two weeks.
I almost died of fever and burning tonsils.
I was on the brink of insanity with all the tests and assignments begging for my undivided attention,
Rihanna postponed her concert, which left me heartbroken:-( (sial ko chris brown)..
A memorable F (don't get me started on that)..
But nothing beats "being sick" and "recovering".
It was the WORSE dying experience ever.
And THAT Monday visit to the clinic was really something.

I was sitting quietly while waiting for my turn to see the doctor,
I was alone, my temperature raging to the point that even breathing hurts,
I willed myself to stay awake!
But this particular shithead decided that maybe messing with me would be fun.

shithead: "awak! awak"
I turn to look at him.
"Awak demam ke?"
~nod~
"Awak ni keje mane?"
"Student"
"Oh, kawan2 awak ade yg mat rempit ke?"
His friend was smirking, apparently enjoying the direction of the conversation.

At this point, I ignored him. Asshole was trying to piss me off.
Of course, just like any other social retards,
my silence didn't stop him.
So he starts pestering me with one stupid question after another,
UNTIL I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING "SHUT THE FUCK UP!"
Despite the stubborn headache hammering my brain,
I won't and can't be aloof anymore.
I refused to be bullied into silence.
Like girls so often do when they are being tinkered with.
so,
I looked him in the eye and said:
"Excuse me?"
~still talking gibberish~
"EXCUSE ME! SAYA NAK TIDUR, AWAK JANGAN GANGGU BOLEH?"
in a civilized and firm voice.

At the direct eye contact, he looked away.
Kotoh!
Unfortunately, the harassment didn't stop there.
Only the villain takes the form of a taxi driver.

QUOTE:
"saya lama suda mau cari girlfriend org sabah..bukan utk apa, pigi makan2, crita2 sekali skala.
macam adik jaga sy, sy jaga adik.
sy boleh belanja adik rm 100, 200, 300 ka.."

Punya main tekejut sa kena bagi 'offer' mcm tu
Do I look like a fucking hooker to you??
Holding back my anger, I asked:

"Bini uncle tidak marah ka? Tidak bagus oh buat mcm tu uncle"
Nah, kena kau!

But, this old wrinkly pervert was unperturbed. Didn't even answer my question.
Even implied that we should exchange phone numbers.
JANGAN HARAP LA!
I was so glad to get off that taxi.

In short, I never felt so SICK and HUMILIATED my whole life.
Porcine, perverted pests!

Lovestruck

2009-02-14T22:39:00.006+08:00

遇到对的人是种缘分
Meeting the right person is like a game of fate

我不得不承认女生还是需要有分寸
I have to admit, girls do need some discretion

你需要去瞄准你要的人
But you gotta step up and aim your favorite guy

不再被动的等送上嘴唇变成你的人
Do not wait and mope. Blow him a kiss and mark him as your man.

ost ISWAK

***********************************

No matter who you are playing;

The girlfriend or boyfriend
The daughter or son
The mother or father
The sister or brother
The friend or stranger
.
.
Love On
Love Well
xoxo

Runaway Train

2009-02-08T22:05:00.007+08:00

"If there is magic on this planet, it is contained in water"

Of all the fun endowed upon me at Sunway Lagoon yesterday, I can't seem to shake the annoyance of missing the roller coaster ride. I got pretty peevish when I was told that the gate was already closed. Everybody speaks of a second chance, but I doubt that a second trip will happen soon..or later for that matter.

Oh well, it can't be helped.

As expected, and just in case you don't know already, Sunway Lagoon is awesome. It's much better than the adverts on TV or magazines that you have feasted on, the real thing doubles the amount of fun you let yourself believe. Dedz and her amazing waterproof camera took several *great* shots, like this:

and this:

ah, the joy:D

..and many, many more at FB to satisfy your ogling..haha

This is how I intend to spend my semester. . to revel in pure, unadulterated fun because it's about time life shifts direction and follow my lead.

I will not be deprived!

Always In My Heart

2009-02-05T23:13:00.002+08:00

6.2.06
It has been three years.

And yet..

I have always wondered if there were better ways to say goodbye,

Than the rushed one we had.

I want you to know that,

Missing you never gets easier...

R.I.P

***

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I knowI don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven..

She Cries

2009-02-02T19:41:00.007+08:00

“The greatest test of courage on earth is to bear defeat without losing heart.”

I was browsing PerezHilton when I "stumbled" upon an entry on Roger Federer's lost at the Australian Open last night. I've been avoiding SUCH entries as well as ESPN Tennis and Tennis.com after the match, because it HURTS so much to acknowledge the loss.
It was one of the biggest match in his life, and mine as well. (been a huge fan of Roger since his Wimbledon triumph over Pete Sampras in 2001)
Turns out it was not his night to shine after all.

I followed the match using IBM Slam Tracker, and thank god I didn't watch in on TV because apparently, Roger cried during the trophy presentation.
Who wouldn't?
He was vying for a place in history.
He could have equalled Pete Sampras' record and resumed his authority on hard court.
And me, being the crybaby I am, cried when I saw this:

If i had known, I would have avoided PerezHilton like the plague.
Damn you Perez!

They Think They Know, But They Have No Idea

2009-02-01T10:57:00.002+08:00

Cynta tagged me! and I'm happy to oblige:)

Rules :

- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you .
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months.
- Tag 10 people

MARCH:

Attractive personality. Sexy?. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

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Yeah, I'm a goody-nicey-homey kinda girl..
For MOST of the time:)

Saturday Cruise

2009-01-31T17:23:00.005+08:00

Everything in life is somewhere else, and you get there in a car.

~E.B. White, One Man's Meat, 1943

I had my first driving lesson today. Honestly, I never really cared much about cars, how to drive them, or whatever it is other people find so fascinating about cars. If it wasn't for the fact that I am the only 21 years old in the universe (okay, at least in my social circle) without a driving license, I would prefer being chauffeured around for the rest of my life. hihi:-)
I guess that's peer pressure for you.

So, I did enjoy the experience behind the wheel. Apparently to get the real thing moving is much easier than handling bumper cars or one of those race cars at game arcades.
I DESPISE bumper car because all it does is ram into other cars despite my godly patience in maneuvering it. I never figured out the civilized way of driving a bumper car, so I made a point to stay away from them.
Now that I have known the joy of a REAL, 'flesh and blood' car, I would take on any go-carting or car bumping challenge any day (kununla)..haha

Anyway, the best part was : I had fun and I learned something.
cliche but, good enough 4 me:)
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Driving is not the only milestone I achieved this week, ice-skating is another.
Let's just say that I need more practice because body balance is not, and never have been one of
my talents.

Nevertheless,
2009 is all about breaking away from established habits ,
it's about taking chances,
it's about treading on an unfamiliar path and see where it leads you..

Right now,
I foresee a thinning purse and annoying aching joints..

In the long run,
I will look back and not ask "what if?"

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* I Was Here

* Sakit Kaki

* Ice, Ice babes

* Group Love

* THIS IS JESS, WHOSE LIFE FINALLY GETS INTERESTING

So Far Oh, So Good!

2009-01-28T10:51:00.004+08:00

Everywhere, my heroes are winning and that gives me another reason to smile today.

“A hero has faced it all: he need not be undefeated, but he must be undaunted.”

# Roger Federer crushed his QF opponent in 3 at the Australian Open. Lost his No.1 ranking and Wimbledon crown last year, but he NEVER fades to the background. Go Roger!!

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# Manchester United crushed WBA 5-0 and record an 11th consecutive clean sheet which elevated Edwin Van Der Sar's minutes of clean sheet beyond Petr Cech's 1025 minutes. We are the EPL, European, and World champions. We have the World's Best Player playing for us, and We own the BEST defensive record in EPL. No arguing with facts, yes?

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Like I said, so far so good:)