Want.

Hope deceives more men than cunning does.

~Vauvenargues

 

I want something I probably will not get.

Not because I don't deserve it.

Because for some reason,

When I want something so bad (this bad),

Circumstances always find a way to mess it up.

I've got no lucky stars to save me,

A lost cause.

I'm tired of being disappointed

All the mocking whys and hows

I'm tired of healing

The gaping hole always takes forever to mend.

Hope is a dirty word.

Even faith is a nasty accomplice.

Do you think,

If I try not to want it so much

Heaven or whatever will let me have it?

Because if it doesn't,

I think I die a little each time....

Wake Up And Smell The Coffee

“In the name of the best within you, do not sacrifice this world to those who are its worst. 

In the name of the values that keep you alive, do not let your vision of man be distorted by the ugly, the cowardly, the mindless in those who have never achieved his title. 

Do not lose your knowledge that man's proper estate is an upright posture, an intransigent mind and a step that travels unlimited roads. 

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. 

Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach.

Check your road and the nature of your battle. 

The world you desired can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, 
It's yours.”